In 2008 after having my first child I was diagnosed with postpartum psychosis. I was admitted to a number of psychiatric hospital and mother and baby unit. I became out of touch with reality, becoming paranoid of everyone, thinking that my baby and husband were going to die, having thoughts of harming my husband and my baby, and having hallucinations. Following this I experienced postpartum depression and suicidal thoughts, which I have been battling with for years until now. I am learning to live with this and recovery is possible. I would like to contribute to raising awareness of postpartum psychosis and postpartum depression and end the shame and stigma and get people talking about this. I would like to write a book about my own experiences and inspire someone out there who has gone through or is going through the same.